At the same time, many difficult things happened in my life.
I lost my heart, spirit and senses as well, even saw my golden “spirit guide” left me.
I was hoping strongly that I get my senses back without any medical care, for that, the method would be only to live a human very basic life in the nature.
And I thought this could be possible in Antaiji. This is my 2nd reason.

Well, the life in Antaiji was like a Paradise to me.
Unfortunately I was there only for 9 days, and had to leave again for my social responsibility, but I recovered myself 20% more, I’m very thankful about this.
Strangely enough not only that but also I found out something more.

I didn’t know that Antaiji used to be in Shichiku in Kyoto, which immediately connected to my childhood. I saw a foreigner carrying stones and called my mother. A couple of months later, my mother left me and my father. 17 years later I met her and her new husband and then 5 years later she told me that her new husband was that foreigner.
After my days in Antaiji, she told me that stone he was carrying was from Antaiji, which still exist in our house in Kyoto. In this way, my life has somehow connection to Antaiji, which makes me Antaiji extra special.
Thank you very much for your existence!

P.S.; If I need to make some negative comment, then I was surprised to have curry, pasta and Ramen there.

P.P.S; From Buddhism point of view, I think the life itself is the practice wherever however you are, it’s all depends on your attitude, so my purpose was not a success of meditation.